Identity Crisis

What am I doing?
I really should be out there
Living adventure.

I'm living the wrong life here and it makes my soul ache. Why are there no jobs for people like me? I want to live a nomadic/adventurous life with purpose. Delivering medicine/supplies to crazy places, building houses, travelling all the time. This soft-palmed life is crushing me. I know that most people who know me now can't see me getting my hands dirty or doing any work for that matter, but you didn't know me when I worked on the farm. I loved it more than you can know. I dream about it- Fixing things, helping people, having missions and jobs and goals. Gritting my teeth and doing it. I loved it so much, but now who knows what I'll spend the rest of my life doing....