I'm afraid I
ain't got no alibi.
Sometimes I
feel like nobody sees me. It's my worst fear. Selfish, but true. It's not like I think I'm the smartest, most beautiful, fabulous-beyond-belief person in the entire universe. I
just want people to see me and validate me as the not smart, not beautiful, not fabulous person I
am. Does that make sense to you? There are so many things and people I love for their imperfections and I
want people to see mine.
I was about to go to bed and I
took out my contacts and couldn't see. I decided to take some pictures of myself whithout my contacts (I
wouldn't be able to see myself to "pose"
like normal.)
I
only took a few shots because I
feel disoriented when
I can't see anything. These are the pictures that actually focused/didn't cut off most of my face. You can click through for ginormous pore exposing versions (they are scaled down from the originals on my computer).
P.S. I
made them black and white for dramatic effect. I
wanted them to look old. Like they weren't from 2009 or any time in particular.



Don't feel pressured to comment. This is in introspective post. I
almost made it private but that would sort of negate the purpose.