Hello everyone. I haven't written at all since Joel came back. To be honest, its because I don't know what to write. It's been so up and down and I don't want to write that everything is perfect but I don't want to post anything overly negative. I love Joel, but I'm finding it very difficult to live with him and I feel like I'm under constant scrutiny.

Sometime he can be very loving and considerate, like making me food, etc.. But he is often really really inconsiderate and rude. He probably the messiest person I know- I don't even want to tell you the things I've found on the floor, and if I tell him about a rule or ask him to do something, its like talking to a child. For example: "Do not eat in the bed" seems to be the hardest rule for him to understand. And today, he was playing GTA and Meredith was coming over so we could watch the new Supernatural before she went to work and asking him to stop playing GTA for 45 minutes was just about the worst thing I could ask him evidently.

Just now, (the reason I decided to post) we were making tempura. I normally never ever try to do any cooking related activities around him because he's very discouraging and is very vocal about how horrible a cook I am. I want to try so I dip in a little eggplant and its very gooey and I was laughing because it was clearly a disaster. He just said: "What a waste! Look at all the batter on your hands! Do you TRY to not do things right!?" He was completely serious too. I just didn't know what to say so I came into my room to write a good old post. (Writing it down makes it feel so much better.)

What bothers me the most is that even though he's completely sweet most of the time, the times that he's an ass and I call my mom to talk about it, she constantly thinks that either a) I'm being too dramatic or b) shouldn't expect him to be considerate, clean, etc because "straight guys don't understand why the dishes have to be washed and the shower scrubbed, when a perfectly good TV show is on or he's playing in excellent game of whatever" ... she goes on to talk about my dad saying "there's certain things he does do, so he does those, and I pick up the slack. In all honesty, we were suppose to be 50/50 with household chores, but the truth is is I do at least 75...maybe 90% of the chores."

I hate that anyone just accepts this sexist (toward both men and women) perspective. Partners are partners. It doesn't matter what their sex/gender is- if they are partners they are considerate, kind and don't expect the other person to pick up the slack. I've made it clear that as soon as he gets a job he has to start looking for his own apartment. I want to be with him, but I can't live with him. I refuse to clean up after him and argue about things like when I get to use my own goddamned tv and hear how horrible I am at cooking.

Phew, I feel better. I'm very grateful that he's here and I'm very happy he came back, but I just want us to be equal- I don't want to fight with him and argue constantly.
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p.s. the shirt is from here
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Religious fanatic or poorly crafted satire? You decide.

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My favourite Doctor Who character EVER seems to be making a triumphant return.


In other news, I'd like to thank the following people for today:
  • The popcorn girl who gave me a band aid
  • Mario who also gave me a band aid
  • The bus driver who helped me find Best Buy
  • Meredith for going with me to Best Buy
  • The row of unruly gentlemen behind us in the theatre (thank you for being quiet during the actual movie)
  • Lastly, but not leastly: the Geek Squad guy at Best Buy who found a creative and sneaky way of fixing my problem for free in time tofinish up all my papers for this week!!
Thanks to ALL THOSE PEOPLE for saving me today.
Muhahaha... this is only the BEGINNING!

Many years ago during "Small Universe"

In Alaina's car trapped in the garage.

Alaina trying to get out of the parking structure.

Joel in Venice.

Joel in Venice 2

Meredith screaming "JUST GO" at Alaina trying to exit parking structure.

Meredith screaming: "RAM THEM!" at Alaina...

Meredith dancing and me filming her without her knowledge.

My signature move.

There are many many many more to come my chicklets.
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So the new sims 3 lets you pick 5 wonky personality traits to customize your sims. I'm trying to create friends and family.

Absent Minded

Family oriented
Heavy sleeper
Natural cook

Hates the outdoors
Light sleeper

Now I just have to do Mom, Annie, Alysson, Joel, etc... Any suggestions? Here is the list of traits and what they mean. Also, people can't be conflicting. Like they can't be Good and Evil and they can't be both a light sleeper and a heavy sleeper, etc.
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I can't sleep! I feel like I when I was little and I could barely stand the short wait until Christmas!! Tom Jones keeps being creepy and singing in my head whenever I go into a daydream about reuniting in the airport.

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I'd hate him if I didn't love him so much!!

Reasons I Shouldn't Love Him
  • his last name
  • his fucking earing/nose ring
  • he WOULD be on twitter
  • this stupid jacket
  • his horrible interviews ("True or false, did you choose that role because you got to wear an eye patch?")
  • the way he kisses EVERYONE'S ass- its painful to watch
  • his doughy, pasty face and his bad bad hair
  • how he creepishly stares at people while he's interviewing them... like he wants to have sex with them or slow cook them
  • how he interviews people for 35 minutes and doesn't edit (it would seem) the super boring responses... Strombo: You are not fucking James Lipton!!
This is the first part of his giant Tom Cruise interview. The only good part is when he asks Tom if his friends made fun of him for the couch jumping and Tom responded that he deserved all the jokes he got about it. Tom Cruise works the words "download" and "hardcore" into his interview in a way that will mortify his children. Tom Cruise reminds me of my Uncle Steve in almost every way except the scientology thing.

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This was my favourite scene in the movie. I wish guys were allowed to kiss in movies back then.

"My cemetery is in Keepiscane [sp?]. It’s one of the prettiest in the world. Lovely trees, the sky is blue, the birds- the one in Las Copa [sp?] is really shit. What a pain in the ass you are. Its true- you’re not young and you’re not new and you do make people laugh. And me? I’m still with you because you make me laugh- so you know what I’ve got to do? I’ve got to sell my plot in Keepiscane so I can get one next to you in that shit hole Las Copa [sp?] So I never miss a laugh."
-Armand, The Birdcage

This was my favourite scene in the movie. I wish guys were allowed to kiss in movies back then.

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My April Fool's day was going so well. I had convinced the majority of my friends and family that I was engaged only to crush their hopes and laugh in their faces. I felt wonderful. Then I had to get down to work, which is fine... that's the way life goes...

Until a group started complaining that I wasn't doing enough "work"... Sigh. Here's the thing about group projects in university:

I have a group project for every class. 5 groups. Thats roughly 15 other people that I have to coordinate my life with. I do what I can do and I can't let one group get more attention than the others. It sucks but that's why group work is a bitch. Only this one group has complained that I don't participate enough (even though I devote more time to them than to anybody else.

Fuck this. I'm taking a break to make JELLO!

P.S. Tomorrow is the day Meredith and I are devoting to finishing our Umbanda project. UMBANDA DAAAAY!!
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Any of you who have me on facebook or twitter are probably wondering what's going on with the engagement. This should clear up any questions you have.